It's ok to cry!

If you know me, which I hope you do if you are reading this, then you might wonder why I titled this, 'it's ok to cry!' I have always been a crier. I remember many occasions growing up where I would cry, for one reason or another. I am just in touch with my emotions and not afraid to let some tears flow - like they are now.

You may ask, "Katie, what caused these tears to flow?" To which my answer is, "I have NO FREAKING CLUE!" Just minutes prior to tears flowing down my cheeks, I was searching around my apartment for stamps I bought 6 months ago on sale. I was looking for stamps so that we could hopefully send out our Save the Date cards in the next few days or weeks but cannot for the life of me find them. No doubt I put them somewhere safe - hopefully. So that's fine! I'll survive. Then I try to print more envelopes - and the new printer Tom and I bought for wedding printing activities has been a P.I.T.A.!!! It is constantly smudging when I am printing on the envelopes so I had to not print the return address on them (instead I had to buy some - $5 for 240 aint bad!) So once again, the envelope smudges -just one of three but enough to make me bitter. Bitter because I have already wasted a number of envelopes on this printer and the box of envelopes I bought contained just enough envelopes for our out of town save the date cards!

So conceding defeat on getting any further ahead in the Save the Date department, I sit down and start checking out the many wedding websites I check out and get many ideas from. One contains blog post from a recent bride who is recapping her wedding festivities. While looking at pictures of the bride and her bridesmaids getting ready, and their rehearsal tears begin to fall.

At Pete and Jenn's wedding rehearsal I remember having this weird feeling in my stomach. A feeling that was anxious and nervous - not for them - for me! It is so surreal now realizing that we are next. It's all us. For so long it was them, and then them and us and now....it's just us. I feel pressure that isn't really there. I keep freaking out that there are a million things I need to do and there won't be enough time to do any of it it. Which is crazy because in reality, I am way ahead of the game and have most things planned. So why the stress??? I don't know but stress=tears.

The other night, as Tom was leaving my apartment we ended up standing at my door holding hands and pretending to say vows. As we were doing this, I teared up! Oh man! All I have to say is, Nicole you better have kleenex on you at all times (your dress has pockets for a reason)! Tom the same goes for you! Make-up is getting done professionally so it's waterproof. And expect tears - maybe at the rehearsal, maybe getting ready, maybe during the Mass and maybe during the reception. And at any point in the next 8 months and 4 days!

But tears are good! A nice cleansing! And often happy!