Responsibility

Sometimes I wonder how our lives will change when our baby arrives. I think most expectant parents do. For however many years you have been responsible for yourself and now that's changing. When Tom and I met that changed too. Life was no longer about what I wanted but about what we wanted and what worked for us. When we were married this May it became more evident. Together we had to survive. We no longer needed to rely on our parents to help us out. We were all each other needed. For so long I always turned to my parents and now I turn entirely to him.

I am scared to be a parent. I am nervous to have another being rely on Tom and I for life. It is nerve wracking! I know we'll be fine and be great parents but thinking about it is overwhelming.

Having Bauer has shown me how great we are together taking care of something. Bauer relies on us to take care of him and we have for two weeks. We work together in making sure his needs are met - he's taken out for exercise or bathroom trips, fed, and supervised so he doesn't get into mischief. If one of us is tired or not feeling well the other steps up. It makes me very optimistic for our teamwork when the baby arrives!

Here's our little Bauer again!

23 weeks and counting

So 23 weeks and 5 days in and we feel great! Here I am at 23 weeks and 3 days. Just a little update for today.

Meet Bauer

This is our adorable 10 week old Chocolate Lab! After years of saying we wouldn't get a dog we finally broke down and got one after someone tried to break into our house. He's been amazing so far. Last night he slept through the night! Amazing! I slept beside him on the kitchen floor but that does not take away how amazing it is that on his third night here he slept! He's only had 2 accidents in total and those were on his first night here so that's to be expected.

We are excited for this addition to our family and can't wait to learn more about him and to discover his personality.

Our baby moves...

And moves and moves!!

We just got back early this am from our cruise with Tom's family.

One night we were there and I was laying in bed reading while the rest were drinking wine in the hot tub. I was feeling a little sad to not be participating. As I was reading I was resting my book on my belly and blamo! My book jump because my baby kicked it off! S/he gave about 3 bigs kicks after that which I could see. One was so big it made the strings of my pj pants bounce. It was amazing. I wasn't expecting to be able to see it so early. I wanted to videotape it and knew as soon as I moved to get my camera it would likely stop. After I grabbed my camera I took about 10 minutes of video trying to tape it. I got one good one with a little kick.

So our little one is growing quite active. All day today I have felt so much movement! It is amazing! We go for an ultrasound Friday to check on our little ones heart. I can't wait to say hello again!