Never Alone

One day while walking home from university, I remember thinking about Mary and what life must have been like for her.  A young, unmarried pregnant woman in a time when that would mean a stoning.  This led me to thoughts about what it must like to be pregnant. What it would feel like to have another human being, formed in you and growing in you.  Something that struck me for some reason was that you would never feel alone.  At least that is what I think. It would be a constant reminder of God's love, His presence.

I was reminded of this thought today while driving home from a meeting with colleagues.  Watching the fall colours pass by made me think of life.  I thought about what life will be like when I get married. For some reason what hit me was eating breakfast and lunch (assuming there is time) the day of the wedding and how they would be my last meals `alone.`   I thought about how from that day on, I would always have Tom.  It`s weird to think about. Not that I am alone now because I have my family and friends but it will be in a different way.    I have started reading The Good News about Sex and Marriage, by Christopher West. Last year some friends and I started a book club to read, Theology of the Body by Pope John Paul II. It was the toughest thing ever! So now my plan is to read books about his book in hopes of one day reading Theology of the Body and being able to understand it 100% (here's hoping)!   One of the things that JPII talks about is how married couples through their sexuality are invited to participate in creation with God.  I only just started The Good News about sex and Marriage but it reminded me of that from JPII.  How exciting is that?  God not only created us out of love, but in His great love has chosen us to be creators with Him out of our love??  It is something that I am sure cannot be explained with words.  Through this creation comes new life. All leading to never being alone!!  A feeling of complete belong. I am my beloveds and my beloved is mine.

Maybe I over think things but there are so many little things I look forward to about being married!  So many!! It will be a fun adventure - one that is just 215 days away!